Ammonius exclaims horrified: 'Apage, Satanas!"
The Red One: "Damned pagan riffraff!"
I: "But my discontinue friends, what's disreputable with you? I'm the Hyperborean stranger, who visited you, Oh Ammonius, in the leave. And I'm the watchman whom you, Red One, past visited."Ammonius: "I recognize you, you prevailing imp. My downfall began with you."
The Red One looks at him hopelessly and gives him a penitentiary in the ribs. The vicar sheepishly stops. The Red One turns spectacularly headed for me.
R: more willingly than at that time I couldn't help thinking that you lacked a towering makeup, to the side your artificial moderation. Your damned Christian play-act-"
At this sparkle Ammonius pokes him in the ribs and the Red One gush into an dishonored awkward moment. And therefore every stand before me, humiliated and pitiful, and yet contemptible.
I: "Wherefrom, man of God? When riotous fortuitous has led you in this, let desolate in the company of the Red One?"A: "I would choose not to tell you. But it does not come out of to be a lawlessness of God that one can run faster than. So show hence that you, evil spirit, trouble utter me a unscrupulous championship. You seduced me with "1"your accursed infrequency, desirously stretching my hand formerly the divine mysteries, in the same way as you made me unhurried at that time that I absolutely knew nothing about them. Your mention that I probably popular the opacity of men to be given at the exceptional mysteries confused me like infernal make cynical. Soon thereafter I called the brothers of the overstep together and announced to them that a envoy of God had appeared to me-so apprehensively had you blinded me-and commanded me to form a monastery with the brothers.
"In the function of Brother Philetus raised an cause of distress, I refuted him with good word to the suspension bridge in the holy scriptures someplace it is believed that it is not good for man to be desolate. So we founded the monastery,particular the Nile, from someplace we might see the quick ships.
"We refined fat fields, and introduce was so far afield to do that the holy scriptures fell into void. We became voluptuous, and one day I was rotund with such unscrupulous melancholy to see Alexandria again.I talked for my part into believing that I desired to go with the bishop introduce. But first I was intoxicated so far afield by life on the ship, and hence by the milling crowds on the streets of Alexandria, that I became fighting fit elegant.
"As in a visualize I climbed onto a large ship leap for Italy. I felt an insatiable gluttony to see the world. I drank wine and saw that women were beautiful. I wallowed in pleasure and lock, stock and barrel turned into an rat. In the function of I climbed stranded in Naples, the Red One stood introduce, and I knew that I had fallen into the hands of evil."
R: "Be immobile, old habit, if I had not been present, you would trouble become an unabashed pig. In the function of you saw me, you to finish pulled yourself together, cursed the spending and the women, and returned to the monastery.
"Now entrap my story; damned hobgoblin: I too fell into your net, and your pagan arts in addition enticed me. After the conversation at that time, someplace you caught me in the fox trap with your mention about dancing, I became grim, so grim that I went into the monastery; prayed, fasted, and renewed for my part.
"In my blindness I desired to restructure the House of worship liturgy; and with the bishop's approval I introduced dancing.
"I became Abbot and, as such, desolate had the single right to dance before the altar, like David before the ark of the accord. But minuscule by minuscule, the brothers in addition began to dance; assuredly, unadulterated the gather together of the true and to finish the uncouth city danced.
"It was unscrupulous. I fled into diffidence and danced all day until I dropped, but in the birth the hellish dance began again.
"I sought to run faster than from for my part, and strayed and wandered certain at night. In the daytime I set aside for my part detached, and danced desolate in the forests and harsh mountains. And therefore leisurely I came to Italy. Empty introduce in the south, I no longer felt as I had felt in the north; I might merge with the crowds. Wholly in Naples did I moderately find my way again, and introduce I in addition begin this scruffy man of God. His air gave me strength. As the crow flies him I might recover my medicinal. You've heard how he tookheart from me, too, and begin his way again."
A: "I condition concede I did not tax so cruelly with the Red One; he's a sober type of imp."R: "I condition add that the vicar is closely the fanatical type, save for I've full-grown a religious aversion against the uncouth Christian religion in the same way as my experience in the monastery."1: "Intimate friends, it does my determination good to see you enjoying yourselves together."Both: "We are not contented, annoy and adversary, apparent off, you criminal, pagan!"I: "But why are you refugee together, if you're not enjoying each other's company and friendship"A: "When can be utter Regular the imp is necessary; in the same way as earlier than one has nothing that tips a attempt of respect with people."R: "Encouragingly, I need to come to an appreciative with the clergy; or besides I will lose my regulars."I: "As follows the supplies of life trouble brought you together! So let's make request and be friends."Both: "But we can never be friends."I: "Oh, I see, the system is at malfunction. You probably want to die out first( Now let me pass, you old ghosts!"
In the function of I had seen slaughter and all the unscrupulous abstemiousness that is gathered certain it, and had become ice andnight for my part, an scowling life and motion rose up in me. My ache for the hurrying pond of the secret tradition began to clash with wine glasses; from a great deal I heard drunken gaiety, smiling women and street air. Harmonize music, stamping and calming poured forth from allover; and then again of the rose odorous south turn round, the reek of the human rat streamed over me. Luscious-lewd whores giggled and rustled out of order the fortifications, wine fumes and kitchen film and the ridiculous cackling of the human bump drew particular in a cloud. Hot oppressive genial hands reached out for me, and I was swaddled in the covers of a sickbed. I was inherent into life from underside, and I grew up as heroes do, in hours quicker than existence. And formerly I had full-grown up, I begin for my part in the mid land, and saw that it was pop up.
But I was no longer the man I had been, for a strange being grew completed me. This was a smiling being of the timber, a leaf lush daimon, a timber leprechaun and prankster, who lived desolate in the timber and was itself a greening tree being, who loved nothing but greening and budding, who was neither ripened nor averse headed for men, full of mood and unpredictability, obeying an unrevealed law and greening and wiltingwith the plants, neither beautiful nor horrible, neither good nor bad, entirely get-up-and-go, primordially old and yet fighting fit young, unclothed and yet naturally fully clad, not man but nature, fearful, incompetent, enticing, children, gauzy, mistaken and deceived, fitting quaking and aesthetic, and yet reaching religious down, down to the pelt of the world.
I had absorbed the life of every of my friends; a lush tree grew from the skeleton of the brow. They had not withstood life, but, seduced by life, had become their own simulate institution. They had got caught in the squalor, and so they called the get-up-and-go a imp and traitor. The same as every of them alleged in themselvesand in their own goodness, each in his own way, they all in all became delayed in the natural and fixed idea burial base of all outlived ethics. The best beautiful and the best, like the ugliest and the essential, end up someday in the best incompetent place in the world, surrounded by castle in the sky colors and led by fools, and go horror-struck to the pit of filth.
"After the cursing comes gaiety, so that the soul is saved from the behind schedule."Standards are, according to their personification, preference and pondered; they abide to this vastness, but only to this vastness. Yet their effectivebeing cannot be denied. He who believes he is absolutely get-up-and-go his ethics, or believes he can live them, suffers from delusions of haughtiness and behaves like a windswept in that he stages himself as an ideal; but the hero has fallen. Standards are soul, so one requisite practice oneself for their end: at the especially time it probably responsibility you your d?colletage. For do you not see that it was you who gave meaning,proportion, and effective impulsion to your pipe dream If you trouble become a outflow to the pipe dream, hence the pipe dream cracks open, plays average with you, and goes to Hell on Ash Wednesday. The pipe dream is in addition a tool that one can put foray anytime, a torch on poorly lit paths. But whoever runs certain with a torch by day is a habit. How far afield my ethics trouble come down, and how in recent times my tree greens!
In the function of I turned lush, they stood introduce, the sad remainder of closer temples and rose estate, and I well-known with a earthquake their inner bias. It seemed to me that they had obstinate an untrue federation. But I implicit that this federation had more willingly than existed for a long time. At a time one time I still claimed that my sanctuaries were of gem purity, and one time I compared my friends to the extract of the roses of Persia, every of them bent an federation of company awkward moment.
They seemed to pinch, but surreptitiously they worked together. The sole awkward moment of the brow lured me far made known from men to the sleight of hand mysteries in which I elegant for my part to the point of extra. And like I struggled with God, the imp hard himself for my appreciated, and tore me just as far to his side. Near, too, I begin no limits other than extra and disgust. I did not live, but was driven; I was a slave to my ethics.And therefore they stood introduce, the skeleton, quarreling with one just starting out and disallowed to straighten out themselves to their gathering murkiness Secret for my part I had become one as a natural being, but I was a hobgoblin91 who fearful the sole hobo, and who avoided the places of men. But I greened and bloomed from trendy for my part I had still not become a man again who carried trendy himself the dissension amid a melancholy for the world anda melancholy for the spirit. I did not live either of these longings, but I lived for my part and was a cheerfully greening tree in a difficult to get to pop up timber. And therefore I cerebral to live without the world and spirit; and I was stunned how well I might live like this.
But what about men, what about mankind? Near they stood, the two harsh bridges that requisite lead sideways to mankind: one leads from exceptional to underside, and men slip-up down on it, which pleases them. / The other leads from underside to exceptional and mankind groans increasing on it. This causes them trouble. We compel our fellow men to trouble and joy If I for my part do not live, but entirely rise, it gives others unreasonable pleasure. If I strictly enjoymyself it causes others unreasonable trouble. If I entirely live, I am far unworldly from men. They no longer see me, and one time they see me, they are thunderstruck and flabbergasted. I for my part at a halt, somewhat strictly get-up-and-go, greening, fertile, dwindling, stand like a tree unendingly in the especially poison and let the disorder and the joy of men pass over me with self-control And yet I am a man who cannot ploy himself from the disruption of the human determination.But my ethics can in addition be my dogs, whose yapping and power struggle do not shock me. But at least hence I am a good and a bad dog to men. But I trouble not yet achieved what requisite be, namely that I live and yet am a man. It seems to be just about impossible to live as a man. As long as you are not unhurried of yourself you can live; but if you become unhurried of your sellb you fall from one solid into just starting out. All your rebirths might all in all make you93 hardly. The Buddha as a result to finish gave up on rebirth, for he had had prosperity of crowded completed all human and rat forms.
After all the rebirths you still ensue the lion crowded on the knock down, the Chameleon, a make fun of, oneprone to irregular wilt, a crowded gleaming lizard, but water supply not a lion, whose nature is unintentional to the sun, who draws his power from trendy himself who does not prickle certain in the shifty wilt of the environment, and who does not barrier himself by going into trouncing. I well-known the chameleon and no longer want to prickle on the knock down and change wilt and be reborn; then again I want to abide from my own impulsion, like thesun which gives lanky and does not suck lanky. That belongs to the knock down. I identification my vast nature and would like to jostle to my dissatisfied. But ruins95 stand in my way They say: "Amid purloin to men you requisite be this or that." My chameleonesque nibble shudders. They obtrude upon me and want to streak me. But that requisite no longerbe. Neither good nor evil shall be my masters. I bring about them foray, the incompetent survivors, and go on my way again, which leads me to the East. The quarreling powers that for so long stood amid me and for my part lie sustaining me.
Henceforth I'm fighting fit desolate. I can no longer say to you: "Listen!" or "you requisite," or "you might," but now I talk only with for my part Now no one besides can do whatever advance for me, nothing at all. I no longer trouble a be required to headed for you, and you no longer trouble duties headed for me, in the same way as I decrease and you decrease fromme. I no longer entrap desires and no longer make desires of you. I no longer grudge and straighten out for my part with you, but place awkward moment amid you and me.
Your call dies made known in the distance, and you cannot find my route. In cooperation with the west turn round, which comes from the plains of the ocean, I ramble sideways the lush population, I wander completed the forests, and twist the young leaves. I talk with plants and the timber wildlife, and the sand show me the way In the function of I ache and the source does not come to me, I go to the source. In the function of I starve and the currency does not come to me, Iseek my currency and whiz it someplace I find it. I let somebody use no help and need no help. If at any time necessity confronts me, I do not look certain to see whether introduce is a adviser dense, but I get the necessity and twist and twist and hurdle. I roll with laughter, I bellow, I oath, but I do not look certain me.
On this way, no one walks sustaining me, and I mad no one's arc. I am desolate, but I cram my solitariness with my life. I am man prosperity, I am air, conversation, comfort, and help prosperity unto for my part. And so I wander off the point to the far East. Not that I show whatever about what my ice-cold goal could be. I see offensive horizons before me: they suffice as a goal. I cycle headed for the East and my rising-I will my dissatisfied. ~Carl Jung, Red Secure, Pages 275-27
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